Saturday, January 24, 2009
Is it me, or does anyone feel the same that time is passing by really quickly? I have been home for almost 2 months now. So far enjoying my holidays to the fullest, i had such a wonderful time in Hong Kong with my family..4 of us stuck in a room..i reckon as big as the dinning area in my house (consider very spacious for a typical HK room). Hah....so much to share bout my trip..but i feel like blogging bout something else instead.. haha! Leave HK trip for the next post.
2009 is here, i wonder what this year would bring? 2008 was a great challenging year, new place, new environment, new friends, new experience - being chased by a dog (unforgettable) , getting to know more bout my course (Occupational Therapy) which is pretty challeging indeed to describe what it is in lay man's term or professionally, blending into the Aussie culture...ahh i still havent graps the aussie slang, being in a relationship which although did not lasted for long but i gained alot from it..understanding someone better, being able to recognize each other's weeknesses, expressing your trueself and feelings. Its hard when things doesnt click, when you are far appart, when you are doubtful bout every single situation and when he/she doesnt feel the same...from there its more like a one sided thing. The pain is unbearable but somehow you will come to realise that he/she is not meant to be and you move on with an open mind and heart. There are more challeges to come ahead, and we just have to face it and not turning away from it.
Sometimes i wish for so many things to happen, dream of it, putting high hopes for it to happen..but somehow it may just lead you to disappointed. I wish that i could return to a place i like...Adelaide- the city that i fell in love with..haha! Maybe for some other reasons as well, my brother is there,i have close friends who are crazy and fun, the friendly ..convinient environment..strategic..well planned small city! Just love it. Ahh i made so many mistakes in the past. I had a choice of choosing to stay in a place i like (with the course that i may not like) or choosing a course which is more suitable for myself (leaving the place i love). It was hard...tough..saddening...choice that i have to make. Just go based on ur liking or sacrifice for the sake of a better future? so i chosed to sacrifice, give up a place that i love most and go on with a better option for my future.
When i arrived Geelong...even from day one i was so negative about it. The city, the environment, the people, my new accommodation..it was a total culture shock for me. At that point i just felt like going home, luckily my dad was there to help. After settling down in Uni, moving to a better accommodation i was slightly better, untill i came to realise i was the only international student in my course. How wonderful! It was tough at first, building a network with my coursemates as well as the local people there, but i am lucky enough that my coursemates are very friendly, carring, cheerful, down to earth people. Took me a while to get use to them, the way they speak, their jokes, their social life..etc..at some point i realise that i need to be open minded and get out of the box. Behind my head, i kept on telling myself that i really really want to get out of this place...its not like Adelaide at all and i miss my friends there (silly thougths), i have an option of transferring back (credit transfer)..which gave me a lil hope. In the middle of of the year i tried applying, and i was told that with my results i m eligible to transfer..as long as i do well in my 2nd semester..i was always looking forward for a reply from the Uni in Adelaide. waited...waited...1 month passed...and i was starting to wonder, finally received an email from international admin, but they were asking for my unit description which i have given to the agent dealing with my application..ahh sometimes u cant rely on agents..so many delays, the person administrating was on leave, the unit chair was on leave..and so finally i received the offer during dec. By then there ware so much changes in my mind and uncertainties...(between those period of times, i felt like i was getting used to the environment and my friends there, and after all that interesting things that happened it just partially stop my thought from transferring back..)
As much as i want to transfer, and with the offer given i had to make another choice. This time it is the last choice i could ever possible make and i can never turn back to change it. Having to redo part of year 1 (back to the place i love) or continue with year 2 (remain in a place im learning to love)? ....gahhh....! I decided to continue with year 2, again saying bybye for good to Adelaide. There is no point for me to repeat part of year 1 units, wasting my time...when i have a chance to do 2nd year. Would you make the same choice?..maybe i should go for it...redo year 1, back in adelaide! But the thought of repeating puts me off....and i have to readapt myself again and i do wonder if it is worth it or not. sighh...its so hard, harder than a rock ....but i reckon this is more like my destiny. Sometimes when a making a choice we just have to sacrifice something we like or treasure most..no matter friends, or even a place. The choice i made. I hope its for the best.
I shouldnt be so negative, instead its just a matter of getting use to something new. I survived 1st year in Geelong, i reckon i can do it too this year! HAHA! fingers crossed* its gonna be one hetic, tight, compact, cramming, intensive year............oh lordy!~
2009........
about time i gain some self-confidence, be more organise, lose more weight..LOLZ.....gaining the extras back since i came back home...arghh..too much good food that is too hard to resist :P
...be more independent....make new friends....be more talkative..........hmmmmmmm...
the list goes on......
to be continued........... :)
2009 is here, i wonder what this year would bring? 2008 was a great challenging year, new place, new environment, new friends, new experience - being chased by a dog (unforgettable) , getting to know more bout my course (Occupational Therapy) which is pretty challeging indeed to describe what it is in lay man's term or professionally, blending into the Aussie culture...ahh i still havent graps the aussie slang, being in a relationship which although did not lasted for long but i gained alot from it..understanding someone better, being able to recognize each other's weeknesses, expressing your trueself and feelings. Its hard when things doesnt click, when you are far appart, when you are doubtful bout every single situation and when he/she doesnt feel the same...from there its more like a one sided thing. The pain is unbearable but somehow you will come to realise that he/she is not meant to be and you move on with an open mind and heart. There are more challeges to come ahead, and we just have to face it and not turning away from it.
Sometimes i wish for so many things to happen, dream of it, putting high hopes for it to happen..but somehow it may just lead you to disappointed. I wish that i could return to a place i like...Adelaide- the city that i fell in love with..haha! Maybe for some other reasons as well, my brother is there,i have close friends who are crazy and fun, the friendly ..convinient environment..strategic..well planned small city! Just love it. Ahh i made so many mistakes in the past. I had a choice of choosing to stay in a place i like (with the course that i may not like) or choosing a course which is more suitable for myself (leaving the place i love). It was hard...tough..saddening...choice that i have to make. Just go based on ur liking or sacrifice for the sake of a better future? so i chosed to sacrifice, give up a place that i love most and go on with a better option for my future.
When i arrived Geelong...even from day one i was so negative about it. The city, the environment, the people, my new accommodation..it was a total culture shock for me. At that point i just felt like going home, luckily my dad was there to help. After settling down in Uni, moving to a better accommodation i was slightly better, untill i came to realise i was the only international student in my course. How wonderful! It was tough at first, building a network with my coursemates as well as the local people there, but i am lucky enough that my coursemates are very friendly, carring, cheerful, down to earth people. Took me a while to get use to them, the way they speak, their jokes, their social life..etc..at some point i realise that i need to be open minded and get out of the box. Behind my head, i kept on telling myself that i really really want to get out of this place...its not like Adelaide at all and i miss my friends there (silly thougths), i have an option of transferring back (credit transfer)..which gave me a lil hope. In the middle of of the year i tried applying, and i was told that with my results i m eligible to transfer..as long as i do well in my 2nd semester..i was always looking forward for a reply from the Uni in Adelaide. waited...waited...1 month passed...and i was starting to wonder, finally received an email from international admin, but they were asking for my unit description which i have given to the agent dealing with my application..ahh sometimes u cant rely on agents..so many delays, the person administrating was on leave, the unit chair was on leave..and so finally i received the offer during dec. By then there ware so much changes in my mind and uncertainties...(between those period of times, i felt like i was getting used to the environment and my friends there, and after all that interesting things that happened it just partially stop my thought from transferring back..)
As much as i want to transfer, and with the offer given i had to make another choice. This time it is the last choice i could ever possible make and i can never turn back to change it. Having to redo part of year 1 (back to the place i love) or continue with year 2 (remain in a place im learning to love)? ....gahhh....! I decided to continue with year 2, again saying bybye for good to Adelaide. There is no point for me to repeat part of year 1 units, wasting my time...when i have a chance to do 2nd year. Would you make the same choice?..maybe i should go for it...redo year 1, back in adelaide! But the thought of repeating puts me off....and i have to readapt myself again and i do wonder if it is worth it or not. sighh...its so hard, harder than a rock ....but i reckon this is more like my destiny. Sometimes when a making a choice we just have to sacrifice something we like or treasure most..no matter friends, or even a place. The choice i made. I hope its for the best.
I shouldnt be so negative, instead its just a matter of getting use to something new. I survived 1st year in Geelong, i reckon i can do it too this year! HAHA! fingers crossed* its gonna be one hetic, tight, compact, cramming, intensive year............oh lordy!~
2009........
about time i gain some self-confidence, be more organise, lose more weight..LOLZ.....gaining the extras back since i came back home...arghh..too much good food that is too hard to resist :P
...be more independent....make new friends....be more talkative..........hmmmmmmm...
the list goes on......
to be continued........... :)
1:09 AM
Thursday, January 22, 2009
woooo.......its been a while, i haven't update my blog.
Busy baking..biscuits and cakes at the moment...for CNY!~
Will update soon!
Ta~
Busy baking..biscuits and cakes at the moment...for CNY!~
Will update soon!
Ta~
3:39 PM